living in the rainbow

O perigo de te deixar entrar

2012-02-13T12:59:00.000-08:00

É perfeito . Sentam-se muito distraidamente num banco verde de jardim , onde castanhas e ressequidas folhas secas de castanheiro repousam . De mão dada olham o céu azul muito límpido através das laranjas folhas e finos ramos do castanheiro que lhes faz de sombra . Dentro em pouco ela sorri . Um tímido sorriso que a leva a dizer "Não quero perder-te nunca" . Ele faz-lhe uma caricia na pálida face sardenta e responde-lhe ao ouvido "Não poderia nunca fazê-lo pois eu amo-te" . Ela encosta a sua cabeça no ombro dele .
Acordou . Não passou dum sonho ou de apenas um pensamento vagabundo que não estava longe daquilo que ela sempre quis . Infelizmente ele não sentia o mesmo , e esta historia passava-se sim com a morena rapariga que ele conhecia há menos de dois meses .

Um sorriso esboça-se na sua faça quando o rosto dele lhe atravessa a mente ,
anna

2012-02-13T12:00:00.000-08:00

Qual é afinal o sentido da vida ?

Magoar-se a si próprio é viver ?

outer beauty fades , inside beauty doesn't .

2012-02-12T11:11:00.001-08:00

2012-02-12T07:28:00.000-08:00

"Você permite que o outro entre na sua vida, abre as portas e janelas do seu coração e faz com que o outro se sinta completamente à vontade. Arreda uma cadeira e pede para ele se sentar no lugar mais aconchegante."

- Rô

O futuro nunca chega

2012-02-11T17:42:00.000-08:00

O mundo colidiu comigo .
Não importa o quanto eu tente , o passado não volta .
Ficou fechado , trancado , no ontem , há uma semana atrás .
Era a felicidade que nunca pretendia perder e lá se foi . O sorriso que nunca antes tinha existido , finalmente tinha chegado . Passando despercebidamente pela vida , desapareceu . A curta duração do mesmo fê-lo o mais importante . Fê-lo distinguir-se de todos os falso que agora existem para iludir uma tristeza mais interior .
Um espaço fundo e vazio é tudo o que mais existe além de falsidade . Não existe mais a pura e genuína pessoa que eu antes era .
Subterrada em mentiras como "já não me importa" ou "já não me magoa mais" , é fácil fingir um pensamento mais longínquo .
Sem entender o porquê , vou sim usar um falso sorriso até encontrar o verdadeiro uma vez mais .
Vou também esperar que voltes , mesmo presumindo que nunca te aperceberás do que deixaste para trás .
Dei-te o espaço que precisavas , na esperança que sentisses a minha falta , mas parece que só te fiz esquecer-me mais . Um sorriso bem interpretado pode descrever o quanto preciso de ti . E se me perguntares se existe alguém de quem vou sempre sentir saudades , não te mentirei ao dizer que esse alguém és tu e mais ninguém .
O passado foi sim a melhor fatia do nosso bolo .
Acredito que poderíamos voltar a ser um pouco do que já fomos , mas nunca , nem mesmo que esquecêssemos o nosso passado , voltaríamos a ser tudo o que éramos .
Com pena devo dizer que sei que não fui o suficiente , mas sei que o quanto fui já foi o bastante .
Sei que todas as noites quando te fazia ficar "a pé" até a longas horas da madrugada , todas as vezes que mal cantava , todas as vezes que não falava e todas as vezes que dizia que te amava foram prova e servem como tal para explicar o quanto , agora , sinto a tua falta . Não , nenhuma das mil palavras que possa dizer poderão descrever o quão grande é a importância que para mim tens . E não me vou esforçar a tentar explicar porque nunca irias compreender . Só espero que tenha um lugar sempre guardado na tua mente e no teu coração .

Remonta ao passado que calmo foi , do futuro duro que se avizinhou ,
anna

Quando tu caíres , eu levanto-me

2012-02-07T12:27:00.000-08:00

O meu coração esvaiu-se e derreteu.
O sangue verde topázio escorreu-te por entre os dedos.
Aveludado sofrimento por uma gaiata sentido.
Marcada por uma tristeza salpicada pela solidão.
O rio da mágoa descia pela montanha.
Alcançando o auge do puro anoitecer.
Desvaneceu numa muralha partida.
Qual mortalha rompida por um sopro prateado.
Malhas soltas eram buracos na calçada.
Rompeu o sujo cetim que um amor nunca contemplou.

Desceu a rua que a levou ao inferno ,
anna

Mórbido segundo desvanece em cor-de-rosa celestial

2012-02-06T15:21:00.000-08:00

E a vida morre num corpo afogado pela tristeza.

Marés secas ao vento de um pensamento sombrio.

Gélido sabor de um sorriso amargo.

Coração ardente de uma chama apagada.

Belo rosto por sangue regado.

Pálido olhar sem fundo reluzente.

Moribundo sentimento de uma felicidade inacabada.

Amor de uma pedra à erva que a viu morrer.

Solidão ofegante enterrada em sal.

Clara profundidade de toque guarnecido.

Laranja de lã que flor nunca soltou.

E um Sol sem cor que ao mundo inibiu tal dor.

Sentido é uma palavra indefinida ,
anna

2012-02-02T14:00:00.000-08:00

"Cada vez que estou contigo, mordo a lingua para nao dizer tudo o que penso a teu respeito. Ja fizeste muita merda, é verdade, mas eu sei lá, continuas a fascinar-me de uma forma que nao entendo..."

- Eyelashesandcigarretes

Como é verdade ...

i won't let you close enough to hurt me , again

2012-02-02T13:44:00.000-08:00

Must be brave enough

Remember when i said you were better than me because you were skinnier , prettier , richer , and much more voluptuous ? Well , i was wrong . You're not , you're not better . It's not even comparable because we're two different people . You're skinny , pretty , voluptuous , gorgeous and social but you're also a very undicided person , an easily changed mind , a self conscious and you're too popular . Instead , i am fat , not that pretty , not social , not gorgeous , not self conscious and i'm also not an easily changed minded person , i have low self-steem , i'm insecure , i fake smiles and i'm not good enough . Not comparable , we're opposite sides .

Sometimes i just wish we were not that different . Sometimes having someone that understands and supports me again would be good . Sometimes i miss you so much i can't help it but cry . Sometimes i just wish i could matter what i mattered one year ago . Sometimes i wish i could say "She's my best friend" and know that it was a reciprocal feeling .

I can't give you, the heart you think you gave me ,

Anna

Name 5 things you would never do

2012-01-26T13:26:00.000-08:00

-do a Cinnamon Challenge (already done) ;
-get a nipple or brow piersing ;
-dye my hair blonde ;
-judge my (future) children for being gay or lesbian ;
-eat Guinea pig

raise your middle finger for me , you'll feel the pain of listening it while it breaks

2012-01-23T11:43:00.000-08:00

you carry someone in your heart that is perfectly replaceable .
you took this person too serious . you thought this person was perfect . you put this person in a crystal pedestal .
i'm sorry , you were wrong . i'm sorry you just lost your soul and broke your heart .
there , teach this person "just because i smilled to you , it doesn't mean that i'm gonna marry you . just because i looked at you , it doesn't mean that i'm gonna put a ring on your finger" .
slut what ? say it again , but this time in my face . oh well , i forgot you are such a coward .

and also a kick in the middle of you legs too ,
anna

pasta and rice carrot soup

2012-01-22T12:23:00.001-08:00

"Paradise ? Paradise can go fuck itself !"

2012-01-22T11:11:00.000-08:00

so now you don't care ? yeah , that's very cool , when people need you to care you just don't . when i need you to care , you slip away . i mean , have you ever cared before ? is that the way you are ? because i never knew you this way , but okay .

let's make a deal , you don't care , i don't give a shit . okay ?
i'm gonna be like this now . look , it's you who is losing ! i love you and you simply ignore me ? it's not fair , so let's make it work for both of us . you don't care hun ? okay , i don't give a damn shit about you if so .
it may hurt , it my be tough but i will support it until you fucking care .but if you never start to care , you can be sure that you lost someone like you never had or will never have . it's hard ? well , for me it is too and i don't have the chance to reclaim . get over yourself , you're nothing special to me .

you're just my world ,
anna

don't you dare to touch her again , i'll break you finger one by one if so

2012-01-12T15:02:00.000-08:00

have you ever planed a giant moment in your head , where everything goes well , you're happy , you arrive home so happy that you can't stop smiling and laughing , you go to bed like you're going to wake up in the clouds and everything goes exactly the opposite you imagined and stupidly wrong ? you know why ? because you planed a perfect moment with the person you wanted it to happen . you planed it with someone with the same name and the same appearance but with a complete different mind . in your plan , this person would be sweet and would cuddle and everything . you imagine this date with the person who is perfect in your mind , but in reality the person is just sucks and screws everything up . then you fall apart , because you're hopeless again .

i want you both to die with a bullet in your miserable hearts ,
anna

2012-01-12T12:37:00.000-08:00

you just died inside , your brain exploded that exact moment and it's just your body that stays there . yeah , hard .

why the fuck aren't you there when I need the most ?

2012-01-11T13:49:00.000-08:00

devia haver esperma á venda em embalagens de iogurte ao preço do caviar entao

spinning around you

2012-01-09T13:04:00.000-08:00

for what does it matters if you have a lot of expensive and beautiful clother if your crush doesn't even notice you ?
for what do you need an expensive and sophisticated cell phone if no one calls you ?
for what do you go to the hairdesser if everybody ignore you ?
for what do you buy make up if it can't make you more beautiful ? why do you even wear it ?
why the fuck do people think that rich is better if there are rich people being ignored by the ones they love and more poor people having a significant other that , at least , cares about them ?
why do rich people cry for attention ? why do rich people consider themselves superior ? just tell me why .
they have every material thing they want , but even like that they can't be happy . envy ?

everything that you thought i would be is falling apart right in front of you .
i've never been perfect , but neither have you .
no one will listen , because no one else care .
all the hurt inside you've learned to hide so well .
i can't be who you are .
sometimes beginnings aren't so simple , sometimes goodbye's the only way .
in the shadow of the day , we'll embrace the world in grey .

Linkin Park ,
anna

and i know , i may end up failing too

2012-01-07T11:27:00.000-08:00

babe , you don't need to talk to me like it was my mistake , because it for sure was not . you failed and now you can't admit it . you knew what you were doing , you just did it because you wanted to . lying is easier , but it's not lying that you prove that you're strong , and you keep saying you are . i don't fucking care if you suffered or if you're hurted because the pain i once felt was caused by you and you didn't even want to know .
you're just like me , someone hurted by someone . you're nothing different , so why do you think you're better?
looking to the right in the street is just tot painful because in the past in that place there was you and me , together . and i made a mistake , i tryied to be what you wanted me to be . i changed because of you and now i'm weak . my mind is full of our past and everything revolves around it . i could try to change it , but it wouldn't be enough , it never is . the irreplaceable you .

but you were just like me with someone disappointed in you ,
anna

I keep a photo of the person who chose another instead of me in my bedside table

2012-01-01T11:04:00.001-08:00

I DID IT BABY ! I FUCKING DID IT !

2011-12-31T17:37:00.001-08:00

10 more days now for you . thank you for everything c:

not what it seems to be

2011-12-30T10:15:00.000-08:00

you know this girl who is beautiful and very social ? well , she has feelings , she's fragile and she thinks about one single person .
and the shy girl from your school ? she is crazy when she's with her friends .
and the girl you probably think is a slut , she has been broken for thousands of times .
the girl who smile all day , she cry herself to sleep .
and these boy who catch all the girls ? he probably can't catch the one he wants .
the other boy who is very nerd , he's about to freak out because nobody cares about him .
i don't know why i'm writing this ..

by the way , i hope you like the new header of the blog c:

i'm grounded,
anna

2011-12-29T15:24:00.000-08:00

i i i_know it's not Christmas anymore , but i found something very sweet . i've heard about it in one of Lady Gaga interviews and i heard about it in one of Kandee Johnson videos . it's a pop phone . a pop phone that connects to your cell phone . the only brand that i found is Native Union . they are around 24$ but cheaper on eBay . unfortunately portuguese people are not allowed to order them directly from Native Union , so you buy it on eBay or you have to travel to France , UK or Germany , the only European countries where they sell it .
you can also try to find another brand that sell it too , but i didn't found any .
i want one of this pieces of art , seriously ! the lime green one is amazingly beautiful ..

http://www.nativeunion.com/

2011-12-27T16:40:00.001-08:00

give me your eyes Zooey !

2011-12-25T15:43:00.000-08:00

can i break the promise now ? cause you're not here anymore and it's not worth keeping a promise when none of us is fighting for it to work out . i want to keep it and make it work , but you didn't care when i promised it for you . you forgot what i said , you forgot that i said i wouldn't break it because i promised for you . and if you know me so well like you say , you should know how important it was for me . how important you are for me . but nevermind , i'm gonna keep it . i'm gonna keep the promise just because i promised for you and i swore i wouldn't break it . when the promise is fulfilled , i hope you text me "i'm proud of you" . in fact , i'm not hoping you to text me anything , but .. you won't be proud because for you it was just a promise . i'll be proud of myself for you . i wish the best for you and i also hope you don't do to anybody what you did to me . thanks for have been part of my life .

you were there ,
anna

Merry Christmas !

2011-12-25T11:08:00.000-08:00

What Santa got me :
. Money
. a multi styler BaByliss
. Tresemmé products
. Coconut shower gel and hydratant cream
. Egeo Dolce fragrance and shower gel
. Born This Way : The Remixes album
. Lady Gaga x Terry Richardson book (came from Geneva)
. Candy

you peed your pants ?

2011-12-23T16:58:00.000-08:00

- Your sister arrived ! - her mom screams .
- Come here ! - she screams to her sister .
Her sister is 4 or 5 years younger than her .
- Come here darling .
- Hey , i missed you !
- Oh .. Have a sit , i have something to tell you .
- What ?
- Well , i know you're quite young for ear what i have to tell you , but anyway .. People are stupid . People closest to you can hurt you . Maybe you think these or these person is someone you can trust no matter what , but probably they're not . Some people get close to you just because they want something . Others just remember you exist when they need your help . Not this friends you have in your school now , i'm not talking about you best friend or you sweet little boyfriend . I'm generalizing . With the time , people become rude and cold . I know you have a lot of friends in you school , but out there people are very very stupid . They will judge you because of your appearance , because you're a little oversized , because you're hair is this way , because your voice is too loud , because you can't run as fast as these girl , everything ! They will always find a way to judge you ! They will creat rumors about you , they will make jokes about you . You have to look through what they say , you have to ignore them ! You can't be like them because you're unique ! When they say something like that you won't go to your room cry yourself to sleep , you'll tell them "Shut up bitch , i'm limited edition !" . And if someone gets too close to you , don't trust them just because they told you one secret , you don't know if they're lying ! Get to know this person , just then you can trust her . And if she's too important to you don't ever let her go , never ! You don't want to feel what it hurts to lose someone , trust me . And when you feel like noone cares about you , remember that i'm always here for you . I hope you don't forget this coversation , because one day you'll understand .
She kissed her sister's forehead .

i want to marry Katherine Heigl ,
anna

2011-12-22T17:40:00.001-08:00

look , i made a promise for you . i made a fucking promise for you , can you understand how big it is for me ? CAN YOU !?

come as you are

2011-12-22T16:01:00.000-08:00

no matter how many times you repeat that you her back , she won't come back .
she's not yours anymore , now she doesn't even care about you .
you can be dying and suffering and everything , she doesn't fucking cares .
even if you're turning into a big well known superstar , she doesn't give a fuck .
she can walk by your side for chance , but she won't look in your eyes .
maybe you were friends , best friends or even had a realtionship , now it doesn't matter .
she may said you deserve a second chance , but she didn't really meant it
probabily she replys "me too" when you say "i love you" , but saying "me too" doesn't mean she loves you too .
she doen't miss you at all ! get over it , you won't get het back !
i'm sorry , i know what it is but if you forget her it will be way much easier ..
it's not because you're crying that she's gonna come back ! she won't even notice how hurted you are !
if once she said forever , she was lying !
FORGET ! she's overdated .

douchebag ,
anna

é mentira

2011-12-21T15:53:00.000-08:00

essa rapariga . essa rapariga qe tem a solidao e a escuridao como companheiras constantes . essa rapariga qe ficava acordada até duas , tres da manha . essa rapariga qe pensa duas vezes antes de dizer seja o qe for .
quando ja era uma hora da manha do primeiro dia desse ano , ela desceu as escadas sem fazer barulho . 32 escadas de xisto polido , descalça e sem fazer barulho . nao era habitual da sua parte sair do meio dos seus lençóis , onde fazia tudo menos dormir , áqela hora . quando chegou ao ultimo degrau , acentou o pé num tapede vermelho dourado muito peludo . daí em tres passos está junto á gaveta onde os pais guardavam os medicamentos qe utilizavam mais freqentemente . bagunçou-a toda até encontrar o qe pretendia . já os tinha .
uma caixa de comprimidos qe inibiam a dor e davam sonolencia , optimos para as insonias como costumava dizer a sua mae .
rapidamente voltou para o seu quarto pouco iluminado por dois candeeiros de mesa com luz muito fraca , enrolou-se nos seus lençois e cobertores com a caixa dos comprimidos nas maos . tomo ou nao ?
sem a minima noçao do qe aqilo lhe podia provocar , retirou um comprimido do compartimento selado onde ele se encontrava , fechou a caixa e enfiou o comprimido para a boca . antes de o engolir pensou no motivo qe a tinha levado a isto e na sua cabeça valia bem a pena engoli-lo desde qe a fizesse esqecer .
uns minutos depois apercebeu-se de qe nada tinha servido , pois os comprimidos nao funcionavam nela . e nao desistiu de os tomar , como se costuma fazer . nao , tomou mais . só mais um e desta vez ja funciona . ou nao . nao estavam a fazer efeito . ela nao tinha esperado o tempo suficiente para qe se dissolvessem e fizessem o seu papel . e sim , ela tomou mais . ela acabou com uma das embalagens de 12 comprimidos qe a caixa continha .
na manha seguinte acordou bastante sonolenta mas ja nao estava cansada . acordou ja o sol estava alto e aqecia os vidros frios das janelas do seu quarto . foi um dia perfeitamente normal para ela . mas as noites , essas eram as qe revelavam o seu ser .
sozinha nao era dificil mostrar qem realmente era , ninguem a iria ver .. tomou mais comprimidos , e desta vez nao foram necessarios 12 , pois fizeram efeito mais rapidamente devido á ajuda da água qente qe tambem bebeu .
nao muito tempo depois a sua mae reparou qe a caixa desses mesmos comprimidos estava vazia e nao tinha sido ela a toma-los . e qual nao foi a desculpa ? "tive uma dor de pernas" .
todos os meses a sua mae tinha qe comprar uma ou até duas novas caixas de comprimidos , qe , por tambem aliviarem a dor , eram usados para "dores de pernas" .
tinha-se tornado numa rapariga bastante palida desde entao , nao tinha grandes emoçoes e as suas expressoes nao eram muito demonstrativas daqilo qe sentia pois os comprimidos nao faziam efeito apenas durante a noite , mas prolongavam-se até metade do dia seguinte .
alem de palida e muito branca , as suas olheiras sobressaiam no seu rosto , pois os comprimidos qe tomava nao a deixavam descansar devidamente .
nas suas pernas , pés e maos , a sua pele parecia salame . era muito palida e chegava a ficar amarelada , mas tinha manchas vermelhas e roxas . deveria ser pelo facto de ter ficado tao clara qe agora até se conseguia ver a cor da carne por debaixo da sua pele .
a sua desculpa ja nao era mais aceitavel . numa noite , ela fez demasiado barulho ao fechar a gaveta onde foi buscar uma caixa de comprimidos novinha em folha . o barulho suficiente para acordar a sua mae a umas boas tres horas da madrugada . quando a sua mae entrou no quarto , ja ela estava com quantro comprimidos na boca e pronta para por mais uns quantos .
a mae tinha-lhe destruido tudo . tudo o qe ela achava qe ainda lhe restava . os seus pensamentos nao estavam longe de por fim áqilo tudo . tentou suicidar-se por duas vezes , mas em nenhuma foi corajosa o suficiente para o fazer . e á terceira foi de vez ao colocar-se na linha ferrea onde sabia qe dentro de poucos minutos ia passar um comboio .
encontraram-na na manha seguinte . estava desfigurada como era compreensivel . e a sua mae arrependeu-se de nao ter percebido mais cedo . e ainda o motivo pelo qual ela o fez , o motivo pelo qual ela começou a tomar comprimidos , o tal rapaz . esse tambem se arrependeu de nao ter chegado mais cedo ..

qe final tao coisito ,
anna

2011-12-21T08:28:00.001-08:00

primeiro eu gostava de ti e até te achava fofinha , depois tu disseste isso e agora ja nao gosto de ti . u.u

i want a fluffy/blending brush . anyone can tell me where can i buy a good one here in Portugal ?

2011-12-20T16:07:00.001-08:00

I WANT THURSDAY NOW !

2011-12-20T15:22:00.001-08:00

God , you're perfect ..

2011-12-20T15:17:00.000-08:00

yes , you've lost it all .
no , you can't have it back .
yes , you were happy .
no , you won't be happy that way again .
yes , you were so perfect .
no , perfection doesn't exist .
yes , it was a lie ,
no , it doesn't mean you didn't got it as a truth .
yes , it was good .
no , it was not a waste of time .
yes , you will forget .
no , it won't be just a memory .
yes , i'm still hurted by that .
no , i don't want you to say you're sorry .
YES , I DO WANT YOU BACK .
NO , I DON'T CARE IF YOU MADE A MISTAKE !

you meant the world ,
anna

i wonder what if my best friend knew how much i need her at any time

2011-12-19T18:02:00.001-08:00

had i know how to save a life

2011-12-18T15:50:00.000-08:00

i want you by my side .
everyday i wonder how perfect it would be with you by my side .
how many things we could do together if you were by my side .
how happy i would be with you by my side .
how much it would change me if you were by my side .
how thankful i would be if you were by my side .
how proud of you i would be if you were by my side .
we could sing together if you were by my side .
i would let you do everything if you were by my side .
you could squeeze my cheeks if you were by my side .
you could bring me floweres and you would receive a kiss if you were by my side .
we could watch movies together if you were by my side .
i could tell everyone i was happy because you were by my side .
i could scream at you if you were by my side .
you would have a reason to smile in the morning if you were by my side .
you would finaly can say that you're not invisible for everyone if you were by my side .
you would have someone who loves you more than you can imagine if you were by my side .
can you imagine how perfect it would be if i was by your side ?

if i'm never by your side it's because you push me away , and if i never get the chance to be by your side , just know that for a moment you were the reason of my smile . if i never get the opportunity to be by your side , just remember that for a while you were the first thought in my head when the word love appears . it's all i can say .

Let him know that you know best ,

cause after all you do know best .

As he begins to raise his voice

you lower yours and grant him one last choise :

Drive until you lose the road

or break with the ones you've followed .

He will do one of two things :

He will admit to everything

or he'll say he's just not the same .

And you'll begin to wonder why you came ..

anna

so you had a belly button piercing , where's the scar ? yep , i got you liar

2011-12-18T09:43:00.001-08:00

2011-12-16T15:36:00.000-08:00

- do you like me ?
- do you have candy ?
- no
- so no
- but why ? i'll buy you some candy !
- are you going to buy me candy , like me for a couple of weeks and then move away ?
- no , i'll be here for you .
- is that a promise ?
- yes it is
- oh darling , don't promise me anything .. i know you'll break it
- what do you want me to do ?
- i want you to give me reasons for trust you , and want you to stay by my side and support me even when i'm wrong , i want you to sing for me in Valentine's Day , i want you to bring me flowers , i want you to hug me tight , i want to fall asleep in your lap , i want to wake up and have a text message from you , i want you to look up for me , i want you to think of me before you make a decision , i want you to love me for who i am .
- i'll do it , and you know why ?
- tell me
- because i love you more than the number of the rings of saturn , i love you more than the size of the moon and i love you
- prove it
he grabs her hand and kisses her mouth
- was that enough ?
- absolutely

it's my right to be happy or isn't it ?

2011-12-15T15:10:00.000-08:00

yes , i know i overeact a loooooot ! but it's for a good reason , don't you want me to be true ? so that's who i am , i'm an exaggerated bitch . for me , there's no light in the end of the tunnel unless i can see it . i'm a hypocrite , i tell people to be positive but i'm the worse example of what i say . everything i say , every advice i give is exactly what i wish i could do . i'm the listener while you're the speaker , and you don't even realise how hard it is to me to listen to your problems and give you the right advice when i'm in trouble too .
it's an unexpected way to act . it's the action of the moment . if you're brave probabily you did the right thing , but if you're not , you're losing the chance to be happy . it depends on your bravery and temperament if you'll be happy or not . come on , risk it ! you have nothing left to lose ! you'll feel way much better after you risk it all and realise it was not vain . you're better than you think , just let your bravery take the right place in your life . it's an advice .

slow it down and bring it home ,
anna

Saving money for my own Christmas gift

2011-12-14T13:25:00.000-08:00

secalhar nao fazias aqilo porqe estavas triste , secalhar estavas triste porqe fazia aqilo . um pouco frustrada , talvez como se nao pertencesses ali , mas o motivo disso tudo era só por aqilo qe estavas a fazer . e agora secalhar arrependes-te , porqe isso te deixou marcas .. pois é ..

let's be skinny together ,
anna

Economize dinheiro com perfumes e desodorantes, esfregue os livrinhos da Avon no seu corpo.

2011-12-12T10:45:00.001-08:00

2011-12-11T11:37:00.001-08:00

1. Grab the booknearest to you, turn to page 18, and find line 4.

“outras que todos os caes se deviam chamarCliché.”

2. Stretch your leftarm out as far as you can, What can you touch?

My lamp

3. Before you startedthis survey, what were you doing?

Searching for this“survey”

4. What is the lastthing you watched on TV?

Hawaii Five-0

5. Without looking,guess what time it is

8pm

6. Now look at theclock. What is the actual time?

19:41 pm

7. With the exceptionof the computer, what can you hear?

The TV

8. When did you laststep outside? What were you doing?

Friday , going toschool

9. Did you dream lastnight?

I don’t remember

10. Do you remember your dreams?

Some of them

11. When did you last laugh?

Today

12. Do you remember why / at what?

Meredith Grey fromGrey’s Anatomy said something funny

13. What is on the walls of the room you are in?

A cross , my LadyGaga posters , my TV , a shelf

14. Seen anything weirdlately?

Yes

15. What do you think of this quiz?

It’s good to spendtime

16. What is the last film you saw?

Tangled

17. If you could live anywhere in the world, where wouldyou live?

New York City , 20blocks from Madison Square Garden

18. If you became a multi-millionaire overnight, whatwould you buy?

A ticket for everysingle show of Gaga

19. Tell me something about you that most people don'tknow.

I can’t , sorry

20. If you could change one thing about the world,regardless of guilt or politics, what would you do?

Find a cure forcancer

21. Do you like to dance?

Yes

22. Would you ever consider living abroad?

Yes

23. Does your name make any interesting anagrams?

I don’t know

24. Who made the last incoming call on your phone?

My mom

25. What is the last thing you downloaded onto yourcomputer?

I don’t remember

26. Last time you swam in a pool?

In september

27. Type of music you like most?

Pop

28. Type of music you dislike most?

Metal

29. Are you listening to music right now?

30. What color is your bedroom carpet?

Blue

31. If you could change something about your home, withoutworry about expense or mess, what would you do?

I would probablyhave a bigger bedroom and make my living room look like those living rooms inthe commercials

32. What was the last thing you bought?

Chewing gum

33. Have you ever ridden on a motorbike?

I don’t think so

34. Would you go bungee jumping or sky diving?

Absolutely

35. Do you have a garden?

No , a backyard

36. Do you really know all the words to your nationalanthem?

No ..

37. What is the first thing you think of when you wake upin the morning?

It’s too early !

38. If you could eat lunch with one famous person, whowould it be?

Lady Gaga

39. Who sent the last text message you received?

Nuno

40. Which store would you choose to max out your creditcard?

MAC ?

41. What time is bed time?

Around mid night

42. Have you ever been in a beauty pageant?

Nop

43. How many tattoos do you have?

None yet

44. If you don't have any, have you ever thought ofgetting one?

Oh yes !

45. What did you do for your last birthday?

Anything , myplans failed

46. Do you carry a donor card?

47. Who was the last person you ate dinner with?

My family

48. Is the glass half empty or half full?

Half empty , wtvyou’re talking about

49. What's the farthest-away place you've been?

I don’t know

50. When's the last time you ate a homegrown tomato?

I just eathomegrown tomatoes

51. Have you ever won a trophy?

No , just diplomas

52. Are you a good cook?

I don’t cook a lot, but what I do is good in my opinion

53. Do you know how to pump your own gas?

What !?

54. If you could meet any one person (from history orcurrently alive), who would it be?

It would be LadyGaga , no doubt

55. Have you ever had to wear a uniform to school?

In pre school

56. Do you touch-type?

57. What's under your bed?

The floor ?

58. Do you believe in love at first sight?

No , it’s not love, it’s attraction

59. Think fast, what do you like right now?

I like Mon Cherrie

60. Where were you on Valentine's day?

In school

61. What time do you get up?

11:54 am

62. What was the name of your first pet?

Nero

63. Who is the second to last person to call you?

The second lastperson who called me ? The unknown

64. Is there anything going on this weekend?

Yes , there is . Stayingin my bed

65. How are you feeling right now?

Hot

66. What do you think about the most?

Stupid

67. What time do you get up in the morning?

In week days at7:30 am , on weekends around 11 am

68. If you had A Big Win in the Lottery, how long wouldyou wait to tell people?

I wouldn’t tellanyone , someone could steal it from me

69. Who would you tell first?

My mom

70. What is the last movie that you saw at the cinema?

The Smurfs

71. Do you sing in the shower?

72. Which store would you choose to max out your creditcard?

Again ?

73. What do you do most when you are bored?

I search for agood game , I watch tv , listen to music or do this kind of things

74. What do you do for a living?

I eat ?

75. Do you love your job?

Student ? No ..

76. What did you want to be when you grew up?

I’ve wanted somany jobs .. Right now , Psychologist

77. If you could have any job, what would you want todo/be?

If I had the voice, a singer

78. Which came first the chicken or the egg?

The egg

79. How many keys on your key ring?

80. Where would you retire to?

I don’t know

81. What kind of car do you drive?

Any

82. What are your best physical features?

I’m fat

83. What are your best characteristics?

I’m complainant

84. If you could go anywhere in the world on vacationwhere would you go?

Now York , I’vealready said

85. What kind of books do you like to read?

Romances

86. Where would you want to retire to?

But again !?

87. What is your favorite time of the day?

The lunch !

88. Where did you grow up?

In Portugal

89. How far away from your birthplace do you live now?

I live exactlywhere my birthplace is

90. What are you reading now?

This ?

91. Are you a morning person or a night owl?

None

92. Can you touch your nose with your tongue?

93. Can you close your eyes and raise your eyebrows?

Yes

94. Do you have pets?

Yes

95. How many rings before you answer the phone?

I don’t know

96. What is your best childhood memory?

They are so many

97. What are some of the different jobs that you have hadin your life?

Student , always

98. Any new and exciting things that you would like toshare?

Yes , Lady Gaga isgoing to do 450 shows in her next tour

99. What is most important in life?

Family , friendsand food

100. What Inspires You?

Lady Gaga

name ten people you couldn't live without

2011-12-11T11:23:00.001-08:00

mom , dad , sister , Rita , grandparents , Catarina , Annie , Maria Ines , Nuno , Lady Gaga

2011-12-10T15:08:00.001-08:00

roses are red
violets are blue
lol you're a cunt
i fucking hate you

kkkkk for you too

2011-12-08T11:59:00.001-08:00

1. You are my beautiful past .

2. Lady Gaga

3. The last time i fell from my bike

4. 21 Guns , because it was the song of these time

5. Around 350 (this is from tumblr)

6. Because i was weak

7. My crush

8. Every single day i write a marathon of thoughts

9. It's not love , it's atraction

10. Forever alone

11. When he was jealous of a little boy because i asked him if he wanted a kiss

12. 2010's ? My "best friend"

13. Lady Gaga , Cameron Diaz , Adele , my "best friend" , the boys from tumblr

14. I don't have an "Itunes library" , but in my phone playlist they are Skyscraper , Love on Top , Marry the Night , The Story and What Do You Got ?

15. So many ones ..

16. My crush , because lately he is treating me like i'm anyone else

17. Any night i was awake till late talking on the phone

18. I would go back to two years ago and i would do everything diferently so i could make it last

19. First i don't usually get drunk , then i'm too young to walk outside while drunk . I would probably hit someone in the face .

20. My "best friend" . She changed everything since the first conversation .

like i'm made of paper ,

anna

"When you give up you are losing all the time you tried to get what you wanted."

2011-12-05T13:18:00.001-08:00

- Thomas Chavez

i'm waiting for the hug

2011-12-05T12:41:00.001-08:00

it's not everything , but it's a progress . it's sort of the taste of the past . maybe i'm overeacting , but i get happy with the small actions that importat people do . it's like i'm killing the miss but all the miss is still alive . i want everything to get better . i need everything to get better . i'm hoping everything go back to what is my normal because since it turned in what it is now , i've became such an empty person when it comes to hapiness . i am happy with this progress , i am wishing a bigger progress .

what you meant to be ,
anna

i also broke the promise .

cleavage , good ass and beautiful cheeks

2011-12-02T10:32:00.001-08:00

i'm gonna tell you something personal . i lost somebody one year ago .
i can't say that i lost this person , i guess i didn't even had this person . and this person was really important , this person was my sunshine for a while . i can tell you that i miss this person a lot . this person was the only person who understanded me for so long . i believed and defended this person no matter how many lies this person have told me . so now , you know my biggest secret .

Gaga deserves me more , bye ,
anna

2011-12-02T10:20:00.001-08:00

Marry The Night it's about her past . the hardest part of her past . the part she never talked about in public . i don't care , i trully believe this is why she's so kind with Little Monsters . don't matter how bad she was in the past , i support her as much as i can .
"I'm gonna make it
I'm gonna be a star ,
and you know why ?
Because i have nothing left to lose"

2011-12-01T14:43:00.001-08:00

it's called The Butterfly Project . my butterfly is called MI .

2011-11-30T16:27:00.001-08:00

5 days of the promise
but i really want to breake it ..

2011-11-29T12:25:00.001-08:00

yesterday i wrote a letter . a letter that i will never send to the person it is adressed to . a letter that says everything i've ever wanted to say . a letter that i would want to send if i wasn't so ashamed . which letter i hid from everybody somewhere in my bedroom so my parents can't find it . the letter was wrote in english , so my granny can't read it if she find it while cleaning my room . the letter tells you everything i will never tell anyone , not that way . the letter describes my life inside my head through this past two years since everything happened . it shows all my weakness and what i resort to when i'm too much weak . it talks about my promises and my desire to do something i can't talk about . it shows the big storm that is in my mind everytime i cross the street and i'm afraid to see you . it shows everything people need to make me cry . it is the biggest truth i ever wrote because it all depends on you . i'm writing this right now because i hope you read it and realise that i'm talking to you here . it's all about what you're thinking , yes .

her dream was not to be a cutter , she didn't wanted that . well , i guess ..

2011-11-29T11:25:00.001-08:00

2011-11-28T14:05:00.001-08:00

two days of the promise

saudades de como eramos ..

2011-11-28T14:04:00.001-08:00

espero qe te acente a carapuça

2011-11-27T14:22:00.001-08:00

once i made a promise but then a broke it , now i'm making the same promise again and just one person knows what i'm talking about ..

Santa's on his sleigh, and he's on his way .

2011-11-26T14:30:00.000-08:00

remember when we used to tell all our secrets to each other ? well , now i need to tell you one of my secrets and you're not here anymore .
now you're just like another one , no you're not . you still the same person for me . you're not always in my mind like you used to , you're not my first plan anymore , you're not the reason of my smile like you've been , you don't make me drop some tears like you've done , but you're still the same person to me . you're still the person to who i tell everything , just not in the moment the things happen . you're still one of the most important people in my life , even knowing i've been losing you more and more everyday . well i miss you , sometimes i wonder if you still remember me , if you remember those moments , if you still remember me when you wake up and when you go to sleep , because i do . i'll keep myself moving , keep dreaming ..

the one that got away ,
anna

2011-11-26T13:45:00.001-08:00

ninguem dos qe vao ler isto me dá presentes de Natal , mas pronto ..

nao encontrei imagem , mas o maravilhoso perfume da Zara qe eu encontrei mesmo na caixa . eu acho o frasco mesmo peqenino pois so tem 30 ml . Zara Woman Chocolate , tambem tinha de cereja mas nao cheirei . tambem tinha frasqinhos peqenininhos qe dá pra levar pra qualqer lado e é mesmo fofinho . por ser tao peqenino vai durar mesmo pouco tempo , porqe eu meto perfume até pra estar em casa , a causa da evaporaçao de perfumes de 100 ml em menos de duas semanas . os fracos de 30 ml (os maiores) sao 5€ e qualqer coisa , e os mais peqeninos sao 3€ e qualqer coisa .

encontrei imagem mas nao vou por . um fofinho dum perfume do Boticario, qe ja tenho ha muito tempo o frasco vazio . acho qe comprei em Janeiro de 2010 , e foi 29,99€ , mas acho qe ja nao está a esse preço . até porqe agora ja gel de banho e tudo e cheira muuuuuito bem . a Carla pode confirma-lo . sempre disse qe cheira a gomas e chocolate .

tambem encontrei imagem e tambem nao vou por . Lulu Castagnette Je t'aime . ofereceram-me uma vez e eu comprei depois , e nao durou nada . um dos frascos ainda tem um nadinha no fundo qe nao vou gastar , o outro frasco foi para o lixo . acho aquilo muito magrinho (o frasco mais peqeno) , mas cheira bem . ja nao lembro do preço , acho qe foi acima de 20€ .

nao vou por imagem . Lola by Marc Jacobs . nunca comprei , mas ja cheirei e cheira muuuuuuuuuuito bem . é um grande frasco e muito bonito , tem aqela flor de plastico por cima . o frasco mais largo estava marcado a 80€ e tal , mas vale bem o preço .

no image . Hypnotic Poison , Dior . cheira mesmo bem , é doce . nunca comprei e nao pretendo comprar apesar de valer a pena . acho qe o descobri numa professora e depois na perfumaria e é qualqer coisa á volta de 63€ (no site oficial) .

Miss Dior Chérie . os frascos sao mesmo fofinhos , o rosado com flores (?) principalmente . e cheira bem . nao sei o preço , mas se for ao mesmo qe o Miss Dior médio é qualqer coisa como 73€ .

Love Potion da Oriflame . cheira mesmo beeeeeeem ! tem perfume , oleo e creme . eu tenho o oleo e cheiram todos ao mesmo . o frasco é muito grande mas é so porqe a tampa é enorme , visto qe o sitio onde se encontra o perfume é bem peqenininho . o preço original é 30€ .

e chega bem . ó pra mim a escrever posts deste tamanho ainda por cima sobre perfumes ..

2011-11-25T15:12:00.001-08:00

"Good luck trying to find someone who cares like I did , who understands you like I do , who is forgiving like I am and when you realize there's no one out there like me , I won't be where you left me .."

-Drake

i know you're dancing in the flames

2011-11-25T14:33:00.001-08:00

He used to stay right in the outside of her house , in his car , sleeping right there , so he could be the nearest possible to her . She would never be alone and she would always have this handsome man close to her door so anybody could ever hurt her . So they became one only , together and strong . They were in love with each other , and you know italian people are very strick . They were married for sixty years . She says he was a saint . This man was grandpa Germanotta , he was also italian . So tonight baby , we can both fall over in love . And she's hanging on a moment , oh baby with you .

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jQ7BQuoRmbs&feature=relmfu

men like this ,
anna

"don't promise forever if your forever ends tomorrow"

2011-11-24T15:10:00.001-08:00

at least he trusts you ..

2011-11-24T14:55:00.001-08:00

2011-11-24T14:51:00.001-08:00

e lembrar qe ja nem dignidade para responder tem ,
e saber qe mesmo qe se lembre logo depois se esqece ,
e sonhar qe tudo voltasse como era ,
e lembrar qe tudo aconteceu ,
e saber qe é insignificante ,
e sonhar qe tudo ainda dependesse de ti ,
e lembrar qe quase tudo foi em vao ,
e saber qe nada vai voltar ,
e sonhar ter-te aqi ,
e lembrar daqeles momentos ,
e saber guardar essas memorias ,
e sonhar qe nunca tivesse acontecido ,
e lembrar como começou ,
e saber o porqe desse amor ,
e sonhar qe pudesse voltar atrás .
pelo menos aconteceu ..

razors and pearls ,
anna

denim or black ?

2011-11-23T14:28:00.001-08:00

when you can't have people back , what do you do ?
when you loose someone , what do you do ?
do you cry to erase the pain ?
do you scream ?
do you walk away for hours trying to forget ?
do you keep calm ?
do you ignore the situation and act like anything ever happened ?
or do you hurt yourself in so many ways to soften the pain ?

simply making scars ,
anna

2011-11-23T08:18:00.001-08:00

"Aos que me apunhalaram pelas costas eu digo apenas uma coisa : façam melhor , pois eu ainda estou de pé ."

-Lady Gaga

you do bad things to yourself , but it's me who gets hurt

2011-11-22T14:25:00.000-08:00

chicken milanese à la Gaga

2011-11-22T10:09:00.000-08:00

this is hilarious and sweet at the same time *-*

both blurs

2011-11-19T14:12:00.000-08:00

i guess we never loose the people . we spend some time together with someone and then this person start to move away from us . this doesn't necessarily mean that we are loosing someone .

imagine , you and someone are so close that you can't be one single day without talking with each other . but then , this person is too busy to text or call you one day . it starts to be an habit . you talk like one day in one week with each other . it doesn't mean that you're loosing this person .

i guess .. our mind make us think that this is too big , and make it bigger and worse and it becomes horrible and unbearable and you want to give up . it's too hard to give up , so we keep fighting , even when there are no more reasons for that . i don't believe that a person with who you used to be really close , forget you like that without missing you . i really don't believe that this person will be at home doing nothing and don't feel the need to talk with you . even if it's for a second , this person will remember you . i think ..

barely believe ,

anna

2011-11-17T13:18:00.000-08:00

what if the person who ever made you smile never existed ?

what if the person who's your queen haven't been that perfect in the past ?

what if you role model was a freak in the past ?

what if Lady Gaga tried to commit suicide ?

what if Lady Gaga was sexually abused ?

what if someone stuck a knife in Lady Gaga's belly ?

what if she was dead ?

what if she overcame drugs ?

what if she reveals her real her and it be something outrageous ?

she will always my perfect and flawless queen

never mind my vain words

2011-11-17T11:20:00.000-08:00

ha certas pessoas qe dizem qe ja viveram muito , qe têm muita experiencia de vida ou qe ja passaram pelo inferno em vida só porqe têm um peqeno senao da sociedade . meu amor , isso nao é experiencia de vida , isso é como tu nasceste , e certamente qe nao nasceste com experiencia de vida . logo tu qe pelo qe se vê nem vida propria tens , afinal qual é a tua experiencia de vida ?

espera , ja perdeste muita gente ? isso nao faz com qe tenhas experiencia de vida , e se as perdeste foi porqe tinha qe ser . muitos dos teus namorados te deixaram ? isso nao te faz experiente na vida , secalhar deixaram-te porqe tu qer-los todos . provavelmente até ja podes ter passado por varias coisas , perdido muita gente e tudo isso , mas isso nao muda todos os defeitos e essas qualidades qe te foram atribuidas quando o espermatozoide encontrou o ovulo . e nao é por teres estado 9 meses dentro da tua mae qe tens experiencia de vida , nao é por teres uma estatura diferente qe tens experiencia de vida . pára de ser convencido(a) , isso nao te leva a grande sitio e tambem nao te aumenta a experiencia de vida . quando tiveres 63 anos talvez ja tenhas experiencia de vida , mas neste momento ainda és uma criança ou pouco mais qe isso .

fazer sorrir no momento certo ,

anna

2011-11-16T14:48:00.000-08:00

Catrice Gel Liner 010 - Black Jack with Jack Black

Isso aqi é muito bom mesmo , é mesmo preto e é waterproof ou muito long-lasting porqe nao sai com desmaqilhante , nem com sabao e secalhar tambem nao sai com desmaqilhante de waterproof . É muito barato comparado com certos qe prai ha qe sao demasiado dinheiro pra qualidadezinha . Só tem um senao , tem muito pouca quantidade e precisa de um pincel de eyeliner pra se usar . Mas é muito bom , serio .

Unicorns and bell rings

2011-11-14T13:11:00.000-08:00

Essas esferas redondas com um circulo de cerca de 1 centimetro numa das faces que podem ter variadas cores e tons , que refletem qualqer luz qe lhes seja inserida e que contem ainda outro circulo mais peqeno qe pode dilatar .

Esses grandes circulos de cor qe sao formados por peqenos traços qe fazem relevo la dentro , fazendo-os parecer ter buracos nas zonas mais escura e cascatas ou ravinas entre os traços mais peqenos qe se parecem desfazer na area mais escura . Tipo pingos de chuva qe nao param de escorrer em varias direçoes e qe escurecem quando chegam á barreira qe separa esse circulo da grande esfera que está inserida em uma cavidade suficientemente grande para qe dentro se possa movimentar . Protegido por duas capas como qe peliculas com diferentes camadas qe se tornam espessas o bastante para qe nada lhes possa acontecer tao facilmente .

Todo esse conjunto de peqenas parcelas constituintes de algo fazem espelho do qe muitas pessoas chamam de coraçao .

olhos ,

anna

2011-11-14T11:31:00.000-08:00

- só um bocadinho de nada

- se é nada como é qe qeres um bocadinho ?

2011-11-13T06:54:00.000-08:00

"Somos cartas repetidas do mesmo baralho, que se colam uma à outra para não serem apanhadas numa jogada mais atenta, mas que se separam quando são baralhadas e podem ficar muito longe uma da outra , mesmo quando estão perto."

Margarida Rebelo Pinto,

"A minha casa é o teu Coração"

e a publicidade das nomeaçoes da Casa dos Segredos 2 tem uma musica da Lady Gaga

2011-11-12T15:29:00.000-08:00

2011-11-12T15:20:00.000-08:00

Jamey Rodemeyer is gone . for what i can relate , he was a victim of bulling . he was also a Little Monster , and he killed himself . it happened because there are kind of stupid people who bullied him , serious bulling . not just some jokes and names they called him , it was happening for years and who worried ? he died months ago , not sure how many . and it wasn't worth it . it's not because people kill themselves that bulling is gonna be over . i guess is actually tha opposite . i just don't agree with that . bulling a person just because he/she is fat , gay , skinny , lesbian , ugly or something ? seriously --.

for those who said she can't dress like a normal woman , shut up now !

2011-11-12T09:02:00.000-08:00

and she was eating macarons

i'm gonna see the fireworks in the sky of Disneyland Paris

2011-11-12T09:00:00.000-08:00

you were the person from whom my smile most depended

2011-11-12T06:05:00.000-08:00

QUE PODER !

2011-11-11T17:01:00.001-08:00

2011-11-11T12:07:00.000-08:00

no , i don't like her . but this video it's amazing .. and the song it's not the worse , except the part of "the ooooooooooooooone" . i like all the meaning in the video .

you may wanna forget a person , but there will always be something that will make you remember of everything . a picture , a smell , a place , an act . you won't forget so easily ..

the strange wonder i feel when our eyes meet

2011-11-09T13:23:00.000-08:00

i tried , you know i did . but it's harder than you think , i can't hold this anymore . it's that excitement i feel when you're around . okay , i can't explain ! my life is sucks without you , i just need you . i need your jokes , i need you fakeness , i need you stupid faces , i need your deep eyes , i need this smile , i need . if i say that i want you ? i wouldn't be anything new , but would it change something ?

stain ,

anan

i wish cancer didn't exist because i know people who had different types of cancer , and i know it was not easy

2011-11-09T11:18:00.000-08:00

2011-11-08T11:26:00.000-08:00

Everybody wants something, just a little more
We're makin' a living and what we're livin for?
A rich man or a poor man, a pawn or a king
You can live on the street, you can rule the whole world
But you don't mean one damn thing

What do you got, if you ain't got love
Whatever you got, it just ain't enough
You're walkin' the road, but you're goin' nowhere
You're tryin' to find your way home, but there's no one there
Who do you hold in the dark of night?
You wanna give up, but it's worth the fight
You have all the things, that you've been dreamin' of

If you ain't got someone, you're afraid to lose
Everybody needs just one, someone... to tell them the truth
Maybe I'm a dreamer, but I still believe
I believe in hope, I believe the change can get us off of our knees

If you ain't got love, its all just keeping score
If you ain't got love, what the hell we doing it for

I don't wanna have to talk about it,
How many songs you gotta sing about it
How long you gonna live without it
Why does some somewhere have to doubt it,
Someday you'll figure it out

What do you got, if you ain't got love
Whatever you got, it just ain't enough
You're walkin' the road, but you're goin' nowhere
You're tryin' to find your way home, but there's no one there
Who do you hold in the dark of night?
You wanna give up, but it's worth the fight
You have all the things, that you've been dreamin' of

If you ain't got love, it's all just keeping score
If you ain't got love, what the hell we doin' it for
Woahhh, I ain't got, if you ain't got
What do you got if you ain't got love
What do you got if you ain't got love

i hoped you'd see my face

2011-11-08T10:44:00.000-08:00

now i understand . sometimes we just want someone so much that you can't understand why they don't want you the same way .

once they have your heart , everything is decided . you can't stop thinking about them , all you say is allowed to describe this person too , all you want is this person to hug you , all you wish is that they love you too .

when everybody tell you they feel the same way that you feel , you start to believe , and you tell this person what you feel . this person seem to doesn't care about it , and the next day it's awkward . specially if you see this person everyday and use to talk to this person . you think this person is going to ignore you so you have to find a way to protect yourself from it . but this person is not that stupid you thought and don't ignore you . this moment you realise that even if this person doesn't what you to be his girlfriend , you still have the chance to be his friend . who knows if one day you won't become something bigger ?

it's better to be happy for what you have now , because one day you can loose it and then you won't get the chance to have it back . a hug can be better than nothing , isn't it ?

good girl gone bad ,

anna

in you deep pure black glossy big eyes

2011-11-08T10:20:00.000-08:00

put your head into a Nutella bottle and see yourself getting bigger

2011-11-06T08:27:00.000-08:00

now i'm gonna talk to everybody that have ever told me that Gaga is sucks .

who the hell do you think you are to say that she's ugly ? you're not even better !

why the fuck do you wish she was dead ? come on , set your priorities . is that one of you priorities to wish she was dead ? ow , i never thought your life was so boring !

i don't care if you like her or not ! she is one of the reasons why i keep smiling everyday . and let's be serious , who is the idiot that wish someone's life was dead ?

and tomorrow you may come to me and say that you never meant it , but you said it . i don't feel really influenced by your opinion , because i'm still love her as much as i've ever done .

i still like all the people that say shit about Gaga , you just loose a little bit of my respect everytime you say this kind of things .

if i care about what you say ? how about no ?

but anyway , stop saying shit about her , one day i'll scream with you ! seriously .

screw ,

anna

2011-11-06T05:02:00.000-08:00

qer um conselho ? compre um Glimmerstick Liqui-glide Eyeliner e um pincel de eyeliner , pode ser qe te ajude ficando mais bonita . caso nao resulte , vai numa ravina e se atira .

no caso de ficar pensando qe esse eyeliner so vai fazer voce pior , nao , ele resulta mesmo , em si é qe pode borrar ..

sometimes i just want something perfect and run away with it , disappear from the earth face

2011-11-05T09:52:00.000-07:00

she was not kidding when she said that . i know you thinl it was , maybe you forgot that in the moment , but i'm not this kind of person . i spent the rest of my day thinking about that . i don't deal with this like that . i was not meant to be the shadow of nobody , i wasn't born to be in a semi-real relationship or anything .

i've had to forget two people in my life , i don't need more . it ruined my life once , during at least one year i was ruined . i don't need that again , so please , stop being shy or get the fuck out !

that's all

hell , no ! ,

anna

beautiful scars

2011-11-05T06:34:00.001-07:00

i never thought you were so shy !

2011-11-04T14:27:00.000-07:00

you're gonna drink your tears tonigh , cause i know i lied me baby

2011-11-04T12:33:00.000-07:00

valeu a pena ? valeu a pena todo esse tempo e no fim so ter tido um bonito final ?

durante um tempo sim , ele valeu a pena . mas agora já nao faz mais sentido , porqe o bonito final ja chegou ha um longo tempo .

durante um tempo valia a pena todas essas lagrimas , valia a pena todas essas noites passadas com esses pensamentos em mente , valia a pena .

agora ja nao vale , porqe mesmo nao tendo alcançado nada , alguma coisa eu aprendi .

e é claro qe se sente a falta disso , muita mesmo . sente-se a falta dum "escandalo" quando se saia e nao se voltava , sente-se a falta das "saudades" depois de dias sem conversa , sente-se a falta .

hoje em dia isso ja nao é motivo de lagrimas nem de pensamentos , ja nao é motivo de escandalo nem de saudades .

quando as coisas sao verdadeiras , elas nunca se vao , é o qe dizem . mas isso nao é bem verdade , as vezes vao . quando as coisas se pensam verdadeiras , as vezes vao .

quando as pessoas se vêem e se ignoram .

quando um sorriso nao basta para qe outro aconteça .

quando qe o amor de um , nao é o suficiente para qe haja o do outro .

quando se acredita demais naqilo qe ja se teve provas de qe é mentira .

quando se sente qe se perdeu desde o inicio .

quando se descobre outro alguem mais importante e nada mais importa , as pessoas esqecem-se qe existe alguem qe sempre lá esteve pronto a apoiar , a ouvir e a aconselhar . e quando essas pessoas se apercebem qe esse alguem existiu , ja é tarde demais pois esse alguem ja se cansou de esperar .

quando existe alguem qe nos diz qe nos diz qe nao precisamos de outro alguem para sermos felizes pois temos mais pessoas qe nos amem , nós tambem nos esqecemos e apoiar , ouvir e aconselhar alguem qe ja nos magoou e passamos a dar mais valor ás peqenas coisas porqe nao precisamos de alguem qe nos liguem só quando ninguem está pra ouvir os seus problemas .

nobody said it was easy ,

anna

i wish Santa Claus has money to buy me my presents this Christmas ..

2011-11-03T14:24:00.001-07:00

e tudo qe eu qero esse Natal é qe alguem me fassa a pessoa mais feliz do mundo me oferecendo o dvd da The Monster Ball Tour Live at Madison Square Garden qe irá sair este mês ..

tambem gostava do livro da Lady Gaga com Terry Richardson , mas é um pouco mais caro e ja ficava bem feliz se alguem me oferecesse o dvd porqe nao é assim tao caro .

de resto só qero contribuiçoes para o meu mealheiro , qe estou a precisar de mais nove decimos do money (ja tenho um décimos , yey --.)

se houver alguem qe me queira fazer ainda mais mega feliz , pode me oferecer uma pulseira daqelas qe dizem "boobies" ou das dos "Little Monsters" ou das da "Lady Gaga" .

olha , nao estou a pedir assim tanto e a minha mae diz qe eu mereço c:

smile because it happened

2011-11-03T13:38:00.000-07:00

é giro , a publicidade do fim de semana do Pingo Donce diz sempre "só este fim de semana , no Pingo Doce" , e este fim de semana ja é outra vez os bifinhos com aqela massa dos lacinhos do outro fim de semana ha quatro semanas atrás ..

tambem é giro quando a massa relativa dum átomo é 200,59 vezes maior qe a massa do átomo modelo , qe por acaso é o de carbono - 12 , mas 200,59 vezes 12 nao dá 200,59 ..

tambem é giro quando se está no dentista e uma das nossas musicas favoritas começa a passar na radio , e nós estamos ali de boca aberta sem poder cantar e abrimos bem os olhos quando aqilo chega no refrao e a dentista diz "estou a magoar ?" ..

tambem é giro saber que ja tenho metade do dinheiro para o bilhete mais barato do concerto , um terço para o bilhete médiamente caro , um quinto para o bilhete mais carinho e um décimo para o bilhete qe eu qero ..

tambem é giro quando dizem qe se as amizades sao verdadeiras duram para sempre , e alguem diz qe nem sempre e essa mesma pessoa olha pra mim como se eu tivesse feito alguma coisa (e essa pessoa lê este blog) ..

tambem é giro aqeles frascos de removedor de verniz qe tem um doseador no sitio onde devia ter a tampa , para qe só saia a dose certa de removedor , mas habitualmente carrega-se quase 15 vezes até o algodao ficar quase encharcado ..

tambem é giro quando as pessoas dizem "depois qero falar contigo" e nós ficamos á espera do depois criando ideias e imagens de coisas qe na verdade nao sao nada do qe se qer falar ..

tambem é giro quando se tem muito para dizer , mas nao se diz porqe se tem medo da reacçao das pessoas ..

tambem é giro saber qe se tem mais alguma coisa a dizer e nao se lembrar exactamente do qê ..

gomas ? ,

anna

"tumblr will turn you into a lonely insomniac with bisexual tendencies"

2011-11-01T15:15:00.000-07:00

oh yes it will !

2011-11-01T12:02:00.000-07:00

you're three months older than me , it's not a big deal . so what makes you think that you can drink alcohol and i can't ? does alcohol make you feel better or bigger ? did i ever drink alcohol ? yes , i did . in this moment i felt good , but now it's something irrelevant for me . because i don't need this for feel or look cool . for God sake , don't feel too much big just because you get drunk . let's be serious ? who the hell in your age didn't ?

gtho ,

anna

2011-11-01T06:42:00.001-07:00

2011-11-01T06:28:00.000-07:00

Dia 29 - A sua canção favorita

Lady Gaga - Edge of Glory

Dia 30 - No mês passado, o que você aprendeu

As pessoas nao mudam , somos nós qe imaginamos uma completa mudança delas dentro da nossa cabeça . E elas permanecem exactamente como eram , podem ter ganhado ou perdido qualidades mas nao deixaram de ter os defeitos qe ha pouco tinham . A distancia qe temos duma determinada pessoa faz-nos imaginar o quao perfeita ela podia ser , quando qe ela continua a mesma de sempre . O facto de ja nao termos essa relaçao forte com a pessoa , nao qer dizer qe ela tenha mudado porqe ela nao mudou . Só na nossa cabeça , quando começamos a fazer planos perfeitos demais , é qe as pessoas se tornam boas o suficiente . E depois ? Nenhum desses planos se realiza visto qe as pessoas nao mudam para se tornar a perfeiçao qe nós imaginamos nos nossos planos . Foi isso qe eu aprendi .

2011-10-31T17:09:00.000-07:00

- does she still .. ?

- no , a long time ago .

tears came into her eyes and he stopped talking . he was remembering something that she tries so hard to hide . he was pushing up something that she need that to be in the deepest of her thoughts . he was shooting her heart when what she needed was somebody to build it again . he doesn't understand why they don't talk for weeks because he is used to build up hope and never get the failures .

2011-10-30T10:25:00.000-07:00

2011-10-30T07:48:00.000-07:00

Zara

quem qer dar um desses blazers pra mim no Natal ?

meus preferidos sao o primeiro e o terceiro , e sao quase todos á volta do mesmo preço . olha qe ideia bonito pra me dar no Natal nao é ?

anna